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Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Yet I fall again & again. My bad, I was blinded.
But everything was perfect, I wonder what went wrong? Me or You ..
Wait, I'm proud. I've only 2 exs this year ^^
But that was just numbers yet countless heartbreaks. I wasn't this heartbreak when I left Shah, maybe because I was the one leaving him but we both were together for 6 months. Yet again, Taufik was there for me when life was not being fair.
But now, Taufik left me. & my world has gone haywire. The only time when I remembered smiling was when we were still together, laughing & teasing each other. I really miss those moments & I really miss him. I tried my best not to think about him but I failed. His like all around me. Whenever I'm alone, he'll be the first person that would appear in my mind. His the first guy ever that made me hate love a lot till when they talk about love, I don't even bother to listen. I'm afraid that I might not love again.
Whenever guys talk to me & suddenly they talk about being in a relationship or love, my heart will start to beat fast & I could feel my heart aching in pain. I would ask why? Why now? Why not years ago when Nazri left me. Why must it be Taufik?
This tears won't stop falling. It hurts every bit. Please go,
I'm just 17? Still long way to go. Many things to learn. Making new friends, girls/boys. I keep reminding myself that everything happen for a reason & I'm not ready yet for love. I have friends around me that I could count on. Beautiful people.
For now, I'm going to give my full attention to my studies, council & outside plays. I'm spending my time with girlfriends/boyfriends. I'm going to work hard & reach for the success that I've been aiming for. Amin !
If ever love came, I won't push it aside. I might give it another chance. Just once.
Insyirah.
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